panda bear

my favorite song at the moment. this music video is set in like my dream world.

confessions of a wannabe barista

so when my mother and I moved towns last month, we shipped off a lot of our "nonessential" belongings to our flat in korea to make the job easier. it did make the process very manageable, but included in what i deemed unnecessary were a lot of my clothing that i miss now that seniors are exempt from uniform (it's finally the final quarter!), my copy of a pale view of hills which i had been hoping to get signed by the author himself when i attend his Q&A session in april, and, most regrettably, our beloved nespresso. thank god we retained our glass coffeemaker; buying caffeine every morning/afternoon would quickly empty my wallet. i don't know how i'll survive next year in the dorms, where coffeemakers are considered contraband, but that's a challenge i'll address later.

i've also realized that i may prefer our little hario drip decanter to our nespresso machine -- brewing might take longer and require a bit of practice, but the pour-over process really personalizes my daily coffee experience. folding the filter like origami, smelling the bold earthiness of vittoria espresso blend (a gift from my mother's friend in australia) as it fills the kitchen, watching the perfect tint drip through to the carafe -- then the feeling of satisfaction as you pour the brew into a mug of warm milk and watch the colors swirl into a creamy sepia. it's not your grab-and-go grande cup at Starbucks, but if you think of the process as a caffeination session and a meditation session combined, it's actually quite a smart way to start the day. even if this ritual has made me late for morning class on a couple occasions, i've fallen in love with it. it's not you, nespresso, it's me.


how i spent christmas in tokyo

(fujifilm superia Xtra ISO 400 35mm // lomo LC-A)

tokyo had been settled for a long time on my list of places i want to explore before i die before i finally had the chance to visit last winter over christmas. the weather was perfect (warmer than seoul winters but still brisk), so we spent the night wandering shinjuku, which is a district of tokyo's sprawling metropolis. the streets weave in and out and under and over each other, and people-watching here is an entertainment in itself. past dark, you get a real motley crowd: stylish 20-somethings smoking on curbs, locals who pace the pavements like they'd stop breathing if they stopped moving, bands of giggling high school students, buskers with guitars, doomsday evangelists who drone from the roofs of black-and-white vans, blonde foreigners clutching huge maps and looking lost, and drunk businessmen tripping out of bars.

my mother and father first dragged me to doutor coffee, which is a chain that they used to frequent on their many business trips to japan in the 90s; sipping their americanos, they chatted about other things they remembered. then, drinks in hand, we walked through malls (my idea), bookstores (mom's idea), ski shops (dad's idea), and arcades (my idea again). we enjoyed the christmas decorations everywhere. my dad's friend had recommended a tempura restaurant in the area, so we had an excellent dinner there. and then we took a long elevator ride to an observatory point in a government building. outside again, we dropped by a familymart and bought a christmas cake to share back in our hotel. the walk back was long and much colder than before, but it just made our beds cozier and all the more welcoming. we ended the day by eating the cake and discussing our agenda for the next day. this is how the chois do vacation.


i wonder if i'd care as much

  • nylon jp feb 2015 issue -- picked this up at narita int'l airport last winter as i was waiting for my flight to ICN. i saw kiko on the cover and couldn't resist. in this issue, titled "what do you usually do?," they ask a lot of young people in the beauty/fashion/art industry about their day-to-day lives. it's really interesting to me and i've been rereading it on and off for the past two months. plus it's been giving my crumbling japanese language skills a much-needed workout.
  • marie antoinette OST -- before we left for february break, a friend hosted a viewing of this movie at her house, and it really rekindled my love for it. during february break i dropped by my local used media shop to make my rounds, and i picked this CD up (lucky find!) along with some nietzsche, hegel, and bertrand russell volumes (i'm taking an introductory philosophy class this semester). anyway, the soundtrack is so iconic.
  • dior crème abricot -- i love this so much. i put it on my cuticles a few times a week.
  • & other stories hand cream -- it's not the best consistency, but it smells really good. it sits on my desk, reminding me to visit stories' flagship in soho when i spend a weekend in NYC in april. 
  • "i wonder if i'd care as much" // tashaki miyaki -- a track that really is characteristic of my 3rd quarter senior year so far. this band is a recent discovery and i love them

seasons apart (an introduction)

  • i miss my old room and how it looks in autumn vs. how it looks in summer.
  • i'm looking forward to summer (thrift shopping @ hongdae, used book store @ gangnam, sleeping in, reading, resetting, &c) but i'm not looking forward to the rest of this school year (stress of a different kind).
  • ... hello! i made this blog to talk about the lazy things in life. i'm quite idle and proud of it. it means i know how to make myself happy. however, i find that paying attention to myself can get pretty difficult from time to time (because life is crazy whether we like it or not), so hopefully recording the things i do and love will be a way for me to practice mindfulness. i'm not new to this, but i want this blog to be refreshingly personal & contain only things that are important to me or by me. so if you're reading this, thanks! you're basically reading a personal journal that i write with the knowledge that people may flip through it from time to time. i appreciate your readership.